The journey to the self is messy. When you stop and process your life - pain comes leaking out. If you have stated therapy or a spiritual journey... it’s ok to feel exhausted, cry often and nap!
This is part of the healing process.
Your pain has been shoved down for years... now it’s coming out. That’s a good thing. - like a soul zit. Lol.
Breath and keep going. Something beautiful is waiting for you!